Hmmm

Last night she suddenly video call me..

I thought she get trouble or what cause I haven't pickup her call but already cancel..

The first feeling make me is very very very worried about her... 

I call her back but I have been block...

And then I try video call her back but she didn't accept...

I try to text her,

 "what happen","anything","press wrong"?

And what's the result ?

Press wrong ... Zzzzz....

I wonder why she can press wrong ? 

Did she review back our chat? 

Or someone beside her and try to press do her...

A lot thing Pop-up in my mind...

Haiz...

Just a video call make me whole night can't sleep..

Why I can do care about her? 

Why I can so love her?

I keep asking myself...

Lying on bed...

Keep view her picture, miss her...

Keep wonder what she doing now?

This kind feeling really happening on me..

What a joke if my friend know I'm this kind person...

Cause this not who am I...

Seen I together with her...

I never hope to lost her again..

What can I do? 

A words "waiting"

Why you hurt me?

I don't know why you wanna hurt me...

I miss you badly...

Why I can't stop it?

Stop stop stop stop!!!

I don't want miss her!!!

I don't want lost control!!

Seriously what have you done to me? 

Did you inject drug on me?

Why I can keep missing you?

I don't want act like insane ! 

Stop it....

We missed this chance

Today is our dream and wish day...

But we miss it...

Bali is our honeymoon and celebrate our 2years anniversary...

It's okay...

I trust that I can wait you and steal you back...

I know I'm not belong to you anymore..

But I'll try to get back you...

The first moment we together.. 

We have laugh ,smile, teasing, kissing and argue..

All this is our moment...

I don't know what's love because I have been hurt..

When you appear everything was change..

You give me a warm and I can feel the love from you..

But I didn't appreciate it...

I have done wrong ..

I can feel that you still love me...

I'll keep trying to get back you...

Happy?

She chat with me.. 

Haha... Maybe a few word but it make my day...

Ohhh.. Not make my day is make my night... Haha...

She own me a meal... 

Hmmm.... I want eat holiao!!!

But I won't let you pay cause I want you always own me a meal then I can always meet you..😝

Going sleep now... 

Good night ....

I can't control myself

If I want find you..

I sure can find you...

Why you don't want hurt me harder for 1 time and tell me that you already have boyfriends...

I won't bother you anymore..

I came back from Japan I lost my weight 6kg...

Why I do this all? 

You tell me the true and let me know what you want then I can do what you want...

I can't control myself...

Everyday I also can't sleep well...

Did you remember that how we together?

That moment I was very happy because you're the one who bring me happiness but now .. Not anymore...

I didn't appreciate you...

That's my wrong...

So who read my blog..

Please remember appreciate the people that you love.. Don't ever hurt them...

Give them a hope...

Give everything that she want...

We always think family is important.

But you all also must know that family can't together with us until the end...

Just your love one will...

I very regret what I did all this things...

Waiting

She totally ignore me....

Why?

I have no idea...

Why you can just ignore me?

But I still miss you.. Every single moment I also miss you.. 

How good if this world have a delete button for human...

Maybe someone is better then me...

I can felt it.. Your heart have someone...

But I always lie myself and think positive.

"Actually you're trying to testing my patient"

I don't have someone to share...

I have a lot thing that wanna share with you but....

I'm still waiting your message...